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About Me Official Beta Tester Digital Artist Alan "Thunderbrush" EnglandMale/United States Recent Activity Deviant for 2 Years
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The sophisticated Digital Artist in repose...

Devious Info

  • Current Residence: A weird 60's flashback as near as I can tell
  • Interests: Getting out of here Alive without Hostages
  • Favourite movie: Uncle Larry's home movie of my pony "Boogers" eating his own poo
  • Favourite band or musician: Floyd Cob & the Lug Nuts-The Purvis Odom Express and Olene Boyle & the Gastric Bypassers
  • Favourite genre of music: Asian Polka Fusion-Porno Movie background Funk
  • Favourite artist: Todd Schorr, Glen Barr, Mark Ryden, Robert Williams, Ron English, Shag and JW Waterhouse
  • Favourite poet or writer: Sid Dithers-Judge Judy-Elmer Fudd
  • Favourite photographer: Rabid Squirrel Cam
  • Favourite style of art: Ghetto Chump Freeform
  • Operating System: Quick blow to the back of the head then boot to the groin (repeat as required)
  • MP3 player of choice: Anything Soviet made that can survive large calibre automatic weapon fire
  • Shell of choice: The thick crust of a grandma's make-up
  • Wallpaper of choice: Zombie Clowns with glow in the dark eyes on a nice floral print
  • Skin of choice: Canadians have nice durable pelts that make great seat covers
  • Favourite game: Colostomy Bag Bingo and Rewire the Appliance
  • Favourite gaming platform: My Conscious
  • Favourite cartoon character: Early Cuyler (SquidBillies)
  • Personal Quote: Incoming!
  • Tools of the Trade: A machete, an M-16 and a case of Milagro Tequilla

Why the long face little bear?

Tue Oct 20, 2009, 5:31 AM
  • Mood: Sickened
  • Listening to: Life through my Miracle Ear
  • Reading: ancient hieroglyphics
  • Watching: time square dancing me to the grave
  • Playing: dead (Still) so the Bears won't eat me
  • Eating: humble pie
  • Drinking: to attempt to alter my funk
Where did everybody go? I'm beginning to feel like one of my nightmare's wandering around in the dark looking for that elusive light source. Dark shadow people occasionally breathing their musty-stanky-corpse breath in my ear. Odd noises awakening morbid thoughts. Trying to kick it all to the proverbial curb.

The thought sparks that I am writing in my personal diary and this will be unread by anyone else. So be it. Whatever, I'm fairly certain that I do not care anymore. On with the show. Is there anybody still out there? Can YOU feel it too?

My always dark and sinister corner of the Deviant Art burial plot has always been a barren miniscule netherworld sometimes visited, but certainly no place to raise a family, or take a vacation. The soil here is no good for growing anything other than tumbleweeds. The local pond has no trout. or bass. only these evil Frankenstein-like carp patrolling the bottoms with milky dead eyes that shine through the murky fetid depths like the headlights of a '59 Buick cutting through a foggy night.It always has felt like a Jan Svankmajer movie.

BUT, Here's the rub, as fatalistic, and "my glass is half-empty", as it may always seem, there is that weird and totally demented tiny spark of hope that manages to move one foot ahead of the other that exists even in the mindless zombie looking for the next meal. BRRRRRAAAAIIIIIIINNSSSS!!!! The will to go on despite the depth of the shit you find yourself drowning in.

Deviant Art continues to erode away giving more and more reasons to grab pa's shotgun and put it to DA's massive yet confused forehead unloading both barrels and in turn spray painting everything behind it bright red. Now that my friends is Art more Deviant than they could have ever imagined.

OK what have I learned? I have come to the often suspected, but never admitted to, fact that I would be here despite the heavy losses and casualties, because when it is all said and done, I really am doing this mainly for me. Sure there are lucid, crystal-clear moments of laser focused pleasure given by others and that probably is the carrot that keeps one foot ahead of the other in motion. However the real truth is I would do it anyway because I have the need to do it even if it is for myself. Nobody else "gets me" is no longer as painful as it once may have been, it can always just be my secret and be good enough.

I would be a liar to even suggest that I do not miss all the cool/fun people that have disappeared over my D/A lifetime. Those that have found artistic success, a "real job", or fell in love and no longer needed this as much, or just got bored with it all. I love and miss you guys and wish you even more than what you may have now. To all the die-hards like myself that hang on still, one foot ahead of the other, I finally get it. I'm glad we are still here and it is always great to hear and see from you. Yippie-ti-yi-yay motherfuckers!

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Comments


:iconengland9:
Oh little Ed, sick in the head...

Yeah my therapist told me about him. Have yet to hook up with the creepy lil' bastard. But things are missing through-out the house so I know he's here.

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Comfort the Disturbed, Disturb the Comfortable
:icondaonlyoverlord:
Nope..your twin;)

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"Yea but if the gotters get me I'm gonna get my glock." - Madea
:iconengland9:
Who Me???

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Comfort the Disturbed, Disturb the Comfortable
:icondaonlyoverlord:
MichelleLynn was right, "Retina Terrorist Extraordinare"

I'm definitely watching and will be back to dish more favage...just a mind popping, jaw dropping, eye twisting, psyche whip lashing gallery of goodness to be sure:clap::clap::clap:

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"Yea but if the gotters get me I'm gonna get my glock." - Madea
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:iconkidkovdrop:
I want to thankyou for putting fish listening into your collection, but i also wanted to comment on your journal, but so many have already done so i feared you would never read it. I just wanted to say I am right om board with everything you said. your surreal bitter/sweet wit and skills in art are omly matched by your writing.

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Every act of creation denies, by its mere existence, the world of master and slave. -A. Camus
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:iconmichellelynn725:
Thanks for the collections, Daddio! :love:

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"I stand alone and watch the clock.
I only wait for it to stop...
on Earth as it is in Heaven - the room is lit by electric light."

-Yaz
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:iconkatu01:
Sincerest thanks for the :+fav:'s :D

Looks like we were both shopping at the same time, in each others stores yet!
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:iconkongvmax:
thanks for the fav :D
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:iconmichellelynn725:
I got's me own collection section??
I feel special...
like, "gotta put a lock on that basement door so she don't keep comin' up outta there while we're tryin' ta have supper!"
kind of special. :)

SWEET!! :heart:
Thanks, Daddio!

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"At every occasion, I'll be ready for a funeral."

-Band of Horses
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:iconeddietheyeti:
I am so far behind but Thank You so much for the FAVage my Friend!!!

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See enough horror and experience enough pain and you become separated from your self.

- ETY


An artist must create as often as possible. To cease this task is, to the soul of an artist, as ceasing to breathe.

- ETY
:iconbark:
thanks again for collecting me!
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:iconmad-uninc:
Thanks for faving!-)
:iconzergspice:
Thanks! now hide my comment. quick!
:iconbark:
thank you sir. your bribe money is on the way...
:icondecarabia69:
I'll start thinking of something toward that end. :)

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You ain't so bad your self.
I see a resemblace of H.R. Giger as well as R.S Connett
Peter S Sibrin

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